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March 25 brother...im sure some of the many ppl out there have siblings, and im not any different from them. i'm really happy to have a brother since without him i don think i can become what i am today. he teaches me quite alot of the cruel reality out there. i really appreciate what he did for me even since young, i mus agree that we do have times when we qurrel and fight, but there are good times too.. sometimes i cant but think what i will do if he wasnt here. would i be more lonely or would i treat it that being lonely is something that is so normal. there are times when i thought that what i've done is already the most i can done... sometime i even pray from the dept of my heart that he will know my intention one day is all for his own good... i pray so hard that i even cried at times... jus so he can grow up to be a fine man. but as he grew i realise that he many bad personalities. there has been times when i ask him "do you control money or do money control you?" he replied that he would definitely not be controlled by money. although i know that its impossible to survive without money, there are hidden meaning in my words and im quite sure he know it too. however as time passes, his personalities become quite rotten, i mus say that there are times i really apprieciate him although i didn show it, but i cant believe that we are qurreling because of this thing called "money". it seems that he had lots of things he wanted and he need money badly, his even thick-skin that his even asking my father for money. our family isnt a really rich family, even if i have no allowance i would never get from my father since i know that our family's financial is tight... after getting from my father, who will be his next target? me of course, since my mother's money are all taken from my father. all i can say is that i dono what i should do to be a good sister... how? all i wanted was be a good sister that he would be proud of... but why? i really wish i could cry it all out... but obviously i cant.. why can answer all this question.. someone please teach me how to be a good sister... all i wanted was his happiness... so why is it so hard... how can we go back to the time when we will enjoy each other's company instead of thinking about realistic things... please help me anything out there... for me to be a good sister and for us to go back to the time that will be stuck forever....
time passes ppl change his taller than me now... the time will stay stuck forever and never be recover... March 22 update update ><its being long since i last update >< i guess the same goes to my blog but oh well... many things happen as day passes, i pass my common test fortunately. and make new friends make new enemies maybe too but i dono who... anyway many test is still coming up. and i really do hope my class would be mature and stop creating so much nonesense but instead concentrate in school work since our important exams will be coming really soon. anyway again ._. i've finally updated my fanfic happy happy ^^ im sick but im getting well from it so daijoubu :D sleepy now sayonara :) |
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