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June 27 i dont no things anymore.....i dono things anymore... friends that are close to me... why isit that the more i know them the more im pissed off with him... i thought he was a good friend but then he ended up jus like anyone... i love my brother s why do he have to say sacarstic things to me about him? and whats me he said it was jus a joke... does anyone knows i treat jokes quite seriously? i hate ppl that do those mean things and said it was all jus a joke. seriously i don wanna end this friendship but he jus prove his worth. i also put in my effort to help him in his studies so why do he have to say such things about my brother?
jk A.K.A joon kiat if u somehow stumble upon this post which is highly impossible, i've said what said everything is on U now.
P.S if u think im very petty so be it... although i aleady controlled my emotions well but this is my brother we are talking about... i treat him really dearly...
June 25 school starts...a new semester starts... lots of changes including time table but still its boring....
a change in the following subjects teachers:
-english
-chinese
-civil moral education (co-form teacher)
-physical education
-social studies T_T i will miss my previous teacher...
June 21 wedding!!!was quite tired today woke up quite early since i cant sleep >_< school is reopening soon.. jus in 1 day :X anyway today is my cousin's wedding. everything is like the usual wedding but at least i spend quite an enjoyable time with my cousins that i rarely speak to... anyway hope more of this day would come in the future :)
p.s its my cousin candy's wedding ^^ June 01 wat a waste of time...a few days ago went to work part time by going door to doors selling ice cream, return home 12+ but yet the salary was super low since my sale is low. during the job i realise that some things cant be fix. although sing wei and i are friends and the ppl i work with are my ex-classmates, it just makes me felt how left out i am. i even left them and went home alone just because of that... some ppl might say that i'm really stupid for doing this but wat can i do? i don wanna bind them to me, they have their own friends too... sure it might be lonely but theres nothing that can be done. its all my fault that this happens... and im really useless for getting depress for something like that. friends are something that come and goes in our live... some month ago i saw my primary school classmate, amanda, but i nv called or speak to her even though she was jus beside me. it jus doesnt seems right to interupt the conversation between her and her friend because of me. thats why i leave it as it is... but still this kind of friendship thing is kinda.... painful.... even though i told my self nv let myself trust other but i just cant it just make the suffering more worst. if only i don show all this emotion on my face, and only leave it in the heart... maybe this way its more relaxing since no one can guess wat im thinking...
everyone is growing and being matured... wat about me? this is kinda scary.... |
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